obsolete prefection

And yet I wonder all the time
Why do you love me
You do not know me
Is my presence so alluring
My beauty so transforming
That you would allow me to entrace thee

All these questions
A never-ending plea
Can you just find me
Look for real meaning
Existence in this distance
Not only to fill some void you're missing

It all seems significant
The facade of completion in meaning
So you cannot hear me
When I sing of my own selfishness
A bitch bewitched
Wanting to need thee

This longing all wrong
Fix me
Test me
Push on
Dismiss me
Make me the best me

Yet you only see raptured smiles
Embracing arms
All words you never knew
Together so perfectly
Surfaced with non-promises
Never missed
Hope's most fatal kiss

I wake to this oxymoron
Of life
Each time my eyes
See the day's light
If you really knew
You wouldn't adorn me
Never be introduced
To be reduced

I don't mean to mislead
This is just my lead
That maybe you'd be the one
To preform this longing deed
Make love to the real me
In a place that touches so deep
I'd genuwinely greet

Don't chance what you wish now
It's far too late
Worry not though
It's not all who are afforded this will
Sometimes the bewitched me
Just needs a little mortality

So you see
Sometimes I'm a free me
To some forces that be
I won't efface thee
This is fleeting me

Until then
I continue to meet
Picking and weeding
All who do not meet
Soon I shall plow
And you will touch my soul
Humbling to produce a better me
Hello, it's nice to met thee!
Now there's a genuwine me.

in your eyes

And even though
I didn't see it
The sincerity was in your eyes

From that first night
Your heart smiled

Captivated by my own beknownace
That the situation did ensnare
It was a comfort
You I didn't know
But you cared

My mind had to be a million places at once
Yet you made me smile
Each a genuwine one
Lifting me off the ground
So precise about where I placed my feet
Humbling yourself to me

Your presence was felt
And if ever I replay
The events of that day
I'm thankful that we met
Even in the most ridiculous way
Patient in my delay
And even though you were free to be
You never left me

You wanted to avenge me
But there was no vengence in me
I just wanted to get away from the me I use to be
Because she may have been sitting
With her face in her hand
Crying wishing that boy still cared
Oblivious to see that love was no longer there

You remind me each time
That this kind of heart of mine
Something never witnessed
Still dazzles your mind
Lovestruck wanting to be mine
But for this purpose
You'd promise a lifetime

Not just a friend you said
But someone who'd forever be there
Always giving my heart
Tender loving care

And thru some washed tears
You turned around
Held firm to my heart's bed
You ly and wait
For the day when it would be ready
Willing to be embraced

Now I look at your smiling face
And I can see how you hurt
But you tell me how much you care anyway
Forever's still there
Though your now fragile heart is in dispair

You say you love me more
Than anyone ever will
And now I see
The sincerity in your eyes
Only this time
Your heart cries

adieu Love

Seems like there should be some final words to say.
But no matter how hard the wind whistles.
I can’t seem to blow the thought of you away.

Why are you so confused?
When it was you who made all the rules.
Now it seems like you can’t take
What you yourself put into play.
So do we allow our encounter to just fade away?

I’d like to sit and listen
If you ever thought you have something to say.
Because I know there’s no way
You could just throw these feelings away.

Let me know what's frightening
About me being with you
And why you’ll never seemingly be true.
Let me know so when its finally over and we’ve both let go.

I would have known that my only penalty of mine
Would have been
The inability of love to turn back time
If only then I would have never wished you were mine.
08.17.06

you are Love

Loves this crazy/beautiful thing
That’s got such a hold on me
I can hear his heart calling truly
I’ll never leave him love sick and lonely
If his heart aches only for me

What if introduces
A lovers cliché
Yet he takes one look
And deception flows
Trying to convince me of this fictional love
That we must keep alive
"Don’t leave me" he says
So give me reason to stay
If the best you can do
Is to only treat me this way

Love brings limits
All baggage must be checked
This one’s broken, bruised and battered
But after a brisk cloud of doubt clears the air
This love maybe worth its’ wait

Maybe I should say what I mean
Instead of holding on to what I wish were real
I know you won’t wait
This love can no longer hesitate
Today’s that day I cannot procrastinate

I’ll remember the loving looks we shared
How it felt when love held me in the air
Every time loves lips touched my chest
Falling asleep with love’s tender caress
And all the time I waited for love to be revealed

Shed no tears mediocre love was there
In a special way I’d say
Always my hero
Continually saving the day
What was left has now gone
"My baby could do no wrong"

This love will remember me
I will be this lovers forever memory
Much more than common friends you and me
You can’t rush love if it’s not meant to be
08.17.06

consumption

My love,
My husband,
My friend,
My lover
My everything Godsend
You have totally consumed me.
Mind. Body. Soul.
And to be this far away from you aches.
But to be in your presence
If only a short while
Having this missing

Under submission
 

I count the seconds

And I hold my breath
To bliss from your every smile
Linger on the touch of your fingertips
And savour the taste of your lips when we kiss
So until then
I am waiting here

To exhale again

and so God saw fit

And so exactly to this day

Time would have cycled

From a captivating night

That brought forth

Divinity in early morning light

How was I ever to know

That from this first encounter

My subconscience self knew

He would never let

Another day cease to just

Factor as ordinary

So I leave my nest of refuge

And concoursed to this destination

Familiar yet unknown

I must wait awhile

And my own impatience

Almost cost me much this time

I circle

And contemplate much longer

Should I wait

Or just let this all go to waste

My own inner termoil was fueling my haste

Even still something held firm

Submitting me to this place

In preparation

To take all of what I wanted

And present nothing like I needed

This night about to change our lives

I wonder if he even knew

He would surrender his all

So unaware

Yet willing

Yielding this heart to reciprocrate

He finally pulled in to the designated spot

My heartbeat complete

Curiousity waiting to be fulfilled

I still don't know what had driven me

Embraced with a smiling

And enchanting face

I wanted to know him instantly

To be a confidant

Have my heart entrailed

I don't recall

The never ending conversation

But it took me away

From the unpleasantries of life

Engrossed in him

Not fleeing

Searching I didn't need an escape

Time had already forsaken us

And emotions started to quake

What these feelings

Unearthed intoxicate

It was as if

We had both rekindled a flame

That was never once lit

But was dying to be revived

He extended his arms to me

Something we had spoken of

It was my place

His cuddling space

I can still only hear the beating

Of his own heart

That matched the pace in my chest

Inhaling

And exhaling his anticipation

While he fought

His own demons

I withheld my personal human

Not to extend my gaze

And press against his parted lips

This was the man

From who's rib

I came

I felt it all over

He was the right fit

If nothing last forever what makes love the exception?!

So yeah I saw this caption online the other night and it really made me wonder...
Of course being my own personal advocate
I believe in Love..
With that being said let me muse on familar ground awhile.

What makes love the exception?

Logically I'm thinking time.
Mankind continues on time after time
Age after age..
As long as there is a planet earth
Love will exist...

Man was created with the

Innate ability to give love

And crave it

In all its ways

The foundation of love

Should first be seen in our families

Yet in many instances

Isn't the case

Though absent or not

The results of love

Or the lack there of

Is evident

Then there are relationships

Of people that were once stangers

But by chance or destiny

Have become

Friends or Lovers

From childhood

Most kids gravitate towards that one other individual

That they are so much alike

And sometimes not so

But something clicks

And that one person or that clique

Becomes Best Friends Forever(BFF)

A trend that continues for many

Creating a lifetime of BBFs

And just like children

The more mature mind

Of adults find that one individual

Where something just clicks

Friendship is there

But the emotions

That love envelopes

Causes them to crave much more

From each other

Yes, adolcents and children

Can experience these dynamics

But it just goes to show that love

Does not factor age

It embraces all

In its every form

I do not believe

That anybody has the correct answer

For what love itself should be defined as

But I do believe that

Everyone is touched by it

Wether it's acknowleged

Or known

I watch siblings

Walk to school

Hand in hand

Not saying a word

Love is there

They will protect each other

And will grieve for one another

Two teenagers stand

In a longing embrace

The girl wears

Her boyfriend's varsity jacket

Not saying a word

Love is there

They will protect each other

And will grieve for one another

A just married couple

Drives down Lover's Lane

Top down

Smiles blowing in the wind

Not saying a word

Love is there

They will protect each other

And will grieve for one another

An elderley couple

Sits on a park bench

He smokes a tabaco pipe

And she

Feeds the birds

Not saying a word

Love is there

They will protect each other

And will grieve for one another

Familes,

Friends

And Lover's

All seperate

And sometimes

End in hate

Yet this will never stop

Familes from gatherings

And visits

Friends from laughter

And tears

Or the intimacy of lovers

Love takes a vow

To protect

And cherish

To be faithful

But forgive

Mother's vow to their children

Husbands to their wives

Friends and Lover's

to always be there in spite

Love is the exception

Because love is

A universal language

That will continue

To be spoken by all

Yet only truly touch

Those who open their hearts

To mans greatest desire

To love

And be loved in return

Everyone wishes to be passionatly desired

Yet wanting to be loved even more

To know that they are capable

Of being captivating

And maddening

But to always feel

safe and sheltered

Love lasts

Forever