waiting for the wonderful again

Some say love hurts but that's not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Loosing someone you love hurts. Betrayal hurts. Thing is people confuse these things with love, but in reality, Love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again.

since me you never believed

I want to be like you
And quickly not care about us too
I want to be cruel
And say all the harsh words you said
All the ones that forced the tears I withheld

I want to be like you
And be flirtatious too
I want to be able to believe
That after almost a year
Of all the love shared
I couldn't be more happier without you there

I want to be like you
And have all these ready-made plans too
Of a life without you included
Where I can freely dream of another love
That could of long ago been the one
Instead of being lied to
And all the while having reality misconstrued
Because it was really always about you

I want to be like you
And not think about you obsessively
Anxious to chat online and text message potentials too
Ready and willing to date for new love
As though I knew long ago you weren't the one
I wish you'd told me
Instead of allowing me to fall for you
So used and bruised

Nevertheless I am not like you
I will never not care about us
I cannot pretend that I'm happy you aren't here
There is no other I dream of
Though I plan I still think about you
I don't crave the comfort of strangers
Or the many that have waited with personal agendas
I'd never intentionally hurt you
I would have told you not to fall
Because I wouldn't catch you there

I never want to be like you
I'll cherish the moments
And I'll remember all
You've surely forgotten
I clearly get it
You're gone
And we've both done our wrongs
For now I close my eyes
And dream while I can
Someday the one will come

said hello the same way we said good-bye last night

I believed in our love

I still can't believe you disagree repeatedly

This is your good-bye

Surely time will loose these memories

And I'll find that there's something else to believe in.

"I still love the feeling I get from you, I hope you'll never stop because it gets me through."

-Ozzy Osbourne

Because that day became real today

One day you'll ask "Where's my father?" And with a heart still filled with so much love, I'll hold you tight and say "He lives in heaven and we're preparing to meet him someday."

maybe it wasn't love yet I want to believe, still karma schooled me foolish

All I can taste is you
Leaving the bitter absense of love
When everything's made to be broken
I just need to get through the pain
Of trying to be fixed by you.

the unconquerable heart

Can you send the one for me
That won't leave inevitably
Someone who can forever care about me whole-heartedly
Swiftly let love recover
Like the earth's deepest crater discovered.

I've never enjoyed the melancholy transition between lovers
All the restless nights of memories
I wish I could chase away with straight vodka shots
If only they'd stay far enough
That the teardrops stopped.

Love promised me that he'd be the final kiss
Comfort to the unconquerable heart
But I was taken from the closing act
Dismissed he said "I don't care anymore".
I became the fool fallen in love
Believing and wanting it all
Too good to be true was
Silly beating heart I want what you promised back.

Love missed the fine print

'Fragile - contents are breakable'
And with a lifetime warranty just below
It read "I'll love you always"

I needed you to know.



"Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, you have been the one for me."

-James Blunt