since me you never believed

I want to be like you
And quickly not care about us too
I want to be cruel
And say all the harsh words you said
All the ones that forced the tears I withheld

I want to be like you
And be flirtatious too
I want to be able to believe
That after almost a year
Of all the love shared
I couldn't be more happier without you there

I want to be like you
And have all these ready-made plans too
Of a life without you included
Where I can freely dream of another love
That could of long ago been the one
Instead of being lied to
And all the while having reality misconstrued
Because it was really always about you

I want to be like you
And not think about you obsessively
Anxious to chat online and text message potentials too
Ready and willing to date for new love
As though I knew long ago you weren't the one
I wish you'd told me
Instead of allowing me to fall for you
So used and bruised

Nevertheless I am not like you
I will never not care about us
I cannot pretend that I'm happy you aren't here
There is no other I dream of
Though I plan I still think about you
I don't crave the comfort of strangers
Or the many that have waited with personal agendas
I'd never intentionally hurt you
I would have told you not to fall
Because I wouldn't catch you there

I never want to be like you
I'll cherish the moments
And I'll remember all
You've surely forgotten
I clearly get it
You're gone
And we've both done our wrongs
For now I close my eyes
And dream while I can
Someday the one will come